How lucky we are.

one day we'll get out of this shitty apartment
one day is all it takes for things to turn around now
all i know is i got you and you got me babe
and when that morning comes
I'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
we'll talk about our plans and i'll keep saying how lucky we are
one day we'll get in the car and drive anywhere we wanna go
and then we'll stay in a five star mini bar luxury hotel room
cause all i'll know is i got you and you got me babe
and when that morning comes
i'll make coffee and you'll read the paper
we'll talk about our plans and i'll keep saying how lucky we are
how lucky we are...

by Meiko

This Love.

"This Love" by Maroon 5 covered by Natasha Bedingfield
i love this song! =)

Us.

This is my boyfriend and I. It's crazy knowing that only 5 months ago I didn't even know this guy neither did his existence ever cross my mind. Then a month later, he comes out of nowhere! Sometimes, I get surprised as to how this person created such a great impact on my life. Isn't it odd how one person can do that...just their very presence can suddenly change your whole perspective? It's weird too because I always dreamed of how I would meet "the one" and the way we met isn't exactly what you would call the traditional way of meeting someone. But I guess that's why I like it so much because it IS different and unique in its own aspects.
I've never felt such an urge to reciprocate the same dedication and generosity that this guy has bestowed to me. I can't really say that I've been able to be the perfect girlfriend for the past relationships I've had, but I've definitely learned from my mistakes and I guess Hourt is just reaping the benefits haha. Though through my eyes, he is perfect, I feel as though I have much to learn about him and about myself as well. I just want to be good for him and be the best girlfriend anyone girl could ever be! ...omg I'm such a sap. EWW I just read over everything that I've typed so far and ..*yuck* I guess you could say I sound a bit cheesy but I really do mean every word. I'm extremely happy. Emphasis on the word happy. It's a different kind of happy too... the kind of happy where you still get butterflies when you know that person is coming to see you even though you saw the person a couple hours before. It's the kind of happy when you see something that reminds you of that person and you giggle to yourself knowing that that other person would be laughing too. It's the kind of happy that even though everything seems to be collapsing around you, that person will be there to hold you while you're crying your eyes out. And it's the kind of happy that no one else can make you feel other than that person. I'll be honest, even though I haven't been able to spend time with him as much as I used to, I'm still supportive of what he wants to do and I'm always going to be here cheering him on. I'm your number one fan if you didn't know! And I'm so proud of you. =)

Luann

Moving Forward

I'm sitting at the library at CSUF, 4th floor, relieved that I finally finished a paper for class tonight. I say this a lot, but I hate being on campus sometimes because I'm not a student here...yet. It's kind of similar to opening a Christmas present before Christmas, like spoiling the surprise before you can enjoy it when you're...supposed to enjoy it. I hope that makes sense, because I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I feel so groggy lately. My days consist of sleeping, eating, studying, boyfriend/Taus. And then repeat. It has its pros and cons, I have all the time in the world to study and be ahead in my classes, but I'm still broke. I get depressed all over again whenever I think about my financial struggle that I keep pushing under a rug. I fear that it'll topple over one day and I'll be so deep in a hole that I won't be able to dig myself out. Or maybe I'm already so deep that I don't know it because I neglect that problem. It's difficult to keep me happy now a days, I'll be happy for a certain amount of time and then it's right back to being depressed. I'm pretty good at concealing it though I'd like to think... except not so much anymore because I just exposed myself right now. I'm so many different emotions all at the same time that I'm starting to think that I'm not ME anymore... I don't know.

My 3 month anniversary with my boyfriend is this Sunday. I'm extremely happy to have someone wonderful like him in my life. =) Then I have a Tau-filled weekend as well.

Looking forward to happier days.

Luann

Wired

It's 7:12AM and I've been up for about 24 + hours. Ok I take that back I did take a nap from 2:30-4:30AM and have been up since then cramming for a geology midterm today. My body is exhausted but I can't fall asleep so I'm confused as to what to do. Keep studying or lay down and try to take another short nap? I wasn't sure of either so I decided to take a break and post a blog. After today, I have another midterm for my online class that's due on wednesday so I'll be cramming for that tonight. Bleh, why does it feel like finals week every week?! I had two midterms last week as well, and I've just been studying like crazy since then. Oh dear, it's a little difficult to concentrate at the moment, even now as I type up this blog, because I'm so wired. Ok I'm going to try and ... be productive. Or just lay down. Which ever comes first.

Luann

3 Months and Beyond...

I tell myself Hourt and I have been together for 3 months because it seemed like we started dating the day we first met. If you've ever been to EDC then you know what I'm talking about. Or if you've ever been to a rave in general and have experienced extreme ecstasy. The anniversary present was BY FAR the best and sweetest gift I've ever gotten EVER!! Has your boyfriend/girlfriend ever put on a skit about your relationship and how it developed from its early beginning to what it is now? I didn't think so!! MY BOYFRIEND DID!! It was the sweetest gesture anyone's ever done for me and while I was watching it, I couldn't help but be speechless. It was our story being told, for everyone to see and now everyone knows a lot more about him and I and it makes me extremely happy! Thank you for the wonderful show baby! I love you. =)

Luann

p.s. randy can't do my dance. :p

Fossils, Ancient Geography and Youtube

"I'm a stud!" boasts the balding hippy-like professor that I watch with little amusement from the back of the class. He's wearing a worn out and faded blue t-shirt that coincidently just happens to have a skeletal replica of a trilobite (don't ask me how I know, I'm in geology class HA) with long shorts and a hint of a stain on his right thigh. How someone can be so excited over the history of rocks, still amazes me, but more props to him to have the patience to teach this stuff. I continue to look up from time to time to make sure he thinks I'm paying attention and taking notes but little does he know of what I'm actually doing. A slight grin grows on my face as I look around at all the other students that decided to follow in David's trend of bringing a laptop to class and I watch as everyone surfs the net and pretty much not zoning out as well. I peek over at David's laptop and notice that he is watching surf videos on Youtube. I really am listening but it sounds like pig latin to me. The sequence of discussions are as follows: information RAMMED in your face and then 20 mins of tangents, more information with a mixture of tangents that are completely irrelevant and then I kind of zone out during that part. But today, I'm especially tired of listening to his voice and have succeeded in tuning him out completely for the time being. I don't appear to be conspicuous FUCK i just got the hiccups! DAMN! OK they're gone. phew.

I need a printer of my own. It was a pain in the ass to get my papers for my fossil project printed out before class. Bleh. I'm kind of looking forward to the 3 day field trip for this class to the Mojave desert. I've never camped out in a tent before so it should be exciting.

Guess I'll start listening now.

Luann